dance.

i am very bored. and a little bit hungry. otherwise, i'm great. it's very warm now. some would call it "hot," but i tend to enjoy 90 degree weather. just right.
yesterday was memorial day, and i had a lovely time. really. eric and i got to spend the whole, entire day together for the first time in a long time. fabulous. we had a picnic in oglebay. and we were just together. perfecto.
i think that i'm going to do some laundry tonight. and clean stuff. maybe even take a shower.
eric and i are going to go somewhere really cool over thanksgiving break this year. maybe ireland. or jamaica. it varies widely. anyway, i'm already excited.
i wish i had a blender of my very own. blenders are my favourite kitchen appliances. i think i'll buy ones for my room soon. honestly.
i think i'm going to get a new cellular telephone soon. tomorrow, perhaps. i might get a very skinny razor phone. i might get a red one instead. we'll see.
i want to go to the beach. sand. salt water. sun. sleepy. drinks. pool. tide. stars. long walks on the beach at night are my favourite.
eric, i love you.

sesame street character.

You Are Bert

Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them! You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil. How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others.

deer.

weekend # 1 is down, and just the rest of the summer is left. this place has been determined to be the most boring place on the face of the planet...and that's multiplied by about 100 in the summer. there are only like 25 of us here. less by this friday. much alcohol consumption this past week. plenty more to come.

cup.

i'm at work. "work." we play computer games. i have mastered all of the ebaums games. rachel now holds the tetris world record.
the weather is still being testy. i heard the weather man say, "a severe thunderstorm watch has been issued until 8 pm. this is severe thunderstorm watch 363." i think he meant for this week.
lunch was gross today. we went back to the dorm, and i cleaned my bedroom. it's neat. tidy, persay.
did you know that walmart glues the flowers on their cacti? they do. kara asked.
we are listening to some banjo music. i hate banjo music. mostly
i wish i had some frozen grapes to eat right now.
i'm sitting in front of the "bethany alumni wall of fame." my name will be on there someday. probably tomorrow.
i'm going a dinner tonight. a big dinner with lots of courses. i hope i like something. eric's mom is coming too. and eric.
we didn't even pretend to do work today. i love this job. hah. job.
"I WANNA TAKE YOU TO A GAY BAR!
YOU'RE A SUPERSTAR IN A GAY BAR!"
that's ^ a real song.
my nose is stuffy.

gel.

it has been raining for the past 2 weeks. every single day. thunder is happening right now. then rain. then a brief tease of sun. repeat.
i hope the power doesn't go off. i hate when the power goes off. this place is boring enough with electricity.
there are a lot of wild cats around bethany. not wildcats, just wild cats. i hope. anyway, i think my goal for the summer is to catch one.
i wish i had some pizza right now. and breadsticks. maybe we can order some later on. during the thunderstorm.
i have a brutal cold/allergies right now. death.
the girl who lives across the hall is turning 22 today.
the epic boredom of this job continues plodding through my week. it's taking forever. what a summer. the highlight of my day was having the privilege of eating a chicken patty for lunch. don't get me wrong--that's been the highlight of my life ever since i started attending bethany.
i haven't seen any teachers hanging around this joint yet. i'm hoping to see a whole lot of dr hull. and, of course, dr lovano. other than those 2 fabulous additions to this institution, i could give 2 shits who i see.

trabajar.

well, my first day of summer work ended 45 minutes ago. thrilling. apparently, we don't really have a supervisor this summer. we go down to the call center and work, then we get paid. simple as that. "work" consists of whatever we want it to consist of. today it was rearranging, cleaning, organizing, and emptying computers. 8 hours. great. we pretty much get to take over the call center. and, it will be way more organized and useful this way. especially in the fall. we even get to go shopping for prizes and supplies during work. how fun.
summer food at bethany isn't as bad as i expected. lunch was good, and they had a variety. not so much at dinner, but still okay. i can live with this.
this dorm, on the other hand, is shit. very old. i like new buildings. this bedroom was pretty much depressing when i got here, but it's getting better. lots of things make a good room. i like decorating, and this is a challenge. i won. super won.
bed = bad. small, very small. i don't like a small bed. sheets and 5 pillows help. also, bed risers. and an afagan from grandma.
i love my boyfriend.

you.

only a few more days at home before i get to move AAAALL of my stuff back up to school. and start work again. woo. it's not a bad job...in fact, it's a pretty good job. with friends. i just don't like the concept of working more...ya know how it goes.
i'm eating some strawberries. yummy. we even have this weird white fruit dip that goes on them. it's not bad...if you only eat it every 4 or 5 bites. eh. maybe i'll eat a yogurt next.
i reallyreallyreally want to go to the beach NOW. i've been looking things up for a trip this summer recently, and the beach is just so pretty. i want warm. and sun. and ocean. and sand.
i miss eric. i saw him today--for about an hour. and on monday--for about an hour. we had a date on saturday, and that was fun...but, i want to spend all day, every day with him again!! he finally doesn't work at all tomorrow, so i'll be able to finally have lots of quality eric time. YAY!!
today is mothers' day in mexico. sunday is mothers' day in the states. don't forget to buy your mom something nice. a cliche card and some cut flowers will do. a funny card, potted flowers, and a hallmark token would be better. it's your call; she's only your mom.
it's raining now. this morning was very sunny. i think it's supposed to thunderstorm for the rest of the week. lovely.
i brushed all of the cats last night. maybe i'll be real crazy and do it again tonight. or clip their claws. that's a fun time.
the end.

good.

i have a list:
-my hair is entirely too super curly today.
-one week until i move back to bethany.
-generally, i hate work.
-eric bought me a photo frame for the fuzz.
-it says, "it's good to be king."
-i like yams.
-bethany's graduation was yesterday.
-i'm excited to graduate.
-i'm scared of comps.
-i had a disco party this afternoon.
-i skipped church today.
-it was sort of an accident.
-i loved the date last night.
-i love my boyfriend a lot.
-i made a powerpoint today for fun.
-i think i'll watch a dvd soon.
-i wish it was very warm outside.
-i will learn italian soon.
-i can't wait to go back to europe.
-really.

mundo.

eric and i went and saw the movie "flight 93" tonight. i don't really know how to describe it. i know that there's a lot of controversy about the film right now, but it's okay. i suppose it is a little bit like reliving 9/11, but really not so much. emotions. strange. the final product is basically patriotism. overall, i do think that i would recommend seeing it, even if it's for nothing else but a reminder of 2001. the film is supposed to be done in real time, so it's interesting to see how that day was actually played out through the eyes of the air traffic control and government officials. other than that, i'll let you go see it and make your own judgements. nevertheless, it's most definately a movie better than a lot of the other things showing in theatres this year.
on a cheerier note, eric bought me a photo frame that says, "it's good to be king" for me to put a picture of the fuzz in! it's very cute, and the fuzz shall like it. i plan to keep it on my desk right next the the picture of eric and myself.
i smell like mangos tonight. woo. and, my hair is fun.
my room is almost entirely put together. just in time to repack.
one week until mothers' day!!! buy your mom a potted plant.
why is it so cold?! i hate coldness. detest, i mean.

hoy.

welcome to my very first full day of summer vacation. (yesterday didn't count because it involved moving.) i did really cool things today like unpack some more, hold the fuzz for long periods of time, watch television, and eat lunch at pizza hut with the boyfriend. i like summer. i'm still not entirely unpacked because this process is partially repacking to go back in 2 weeks. frustrating. but still...i now think that i could live here this summer if i had to. so far. i miss being at school though. i miss being with eric every spare second. i miss my friends. i miss my neat little bedroom. i don't miss the work. and, i don't miss the stress. or the food. i've come to love bethany college, while at the same time developing a distinct hatred for the place. it's a complicated relationship. big schools and small schools are polar opposites in a million unexplainable ways.

numbers.

-9 LASTS
1. last place you were: greco's.
2. last soda: orange.
3. last kiss: eric.
4. last movie seen: big daddy.
5. last cd u listened to: i don't know.
6. last bubble bath: last weekend.
7. last time you cried: i don't remember.
8. last alcoholic beverage: last night.
9. last person talked to: my brother.
-8 HAVE YOU EVERS
1. have you ever dated someone twice: yes.
2. have you ever been cheated on: not that i know of.
3. have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: not really.
4. have you ever fallen in love: yes.
5. have you ever been depressed: i've been sad.
6. have you ever been drunk and thrown up: twice.
7. have you ever hit another person: not hard.
8. have you ever skinny dipped: haha, maybe.
-7 STATES OR COUNTRIES YOU'VE VISITED
1. spain.
2. england.
3. italy.
4. new york.
5. south carolina.
6. north carolina.
7. washington dc. (hah, that's not a country OR a state!)
-6 THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. packed things.
2. unpacked things.
3. eaten ice cream.
4. kissed eric.
5. cleaned.
6. eaten a chicken tender wrap.
-5 FAVORITE THINGS
1. eric.
2. the fuzz.
3. pineapple.
4. dvd's.
5. perfume.
-4 FAVORITE COLORS
1. pink.
2. red.
3. white.
4. yellow.
-3 PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING
1. eric bennett.
2. eric bennett.
3. eric bennett.
2 THINGS TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. see everything in the world.
2. get a job that i love.
-1 THING YOU REGRET
1. not learning all of the origins dates earlier.

home.

school is done. final exams are finished. moving out of the dorm is over. i'm home. i was at home for two night over easter break. before that, i had not been home since the end of christmas break. that was for three days. i was home for a week during thanksgiving break. and there were a few weekends during semester 1. anyway, i haven't been living in this room for a good long while. it's different. i'm different. i'm trying to unpack. so much stuff. i love all of the things that i had in my room at school. pretty. cute. love. the things in my room here are mostly old & juvenile, but memoirs. why do i have some of this stuff? why can't i get rid of some of it? memories. but still, i'm getting rid of a lot. it was so important to remember somethings, but now it isn't. did i really grow up this much during the past year? i think so. a lot has happened to me since august. good things. i'm different now. a lot more ready for everything. a lot more experienced. a lot more mature. a lot more in love. a lot more of my very own person. who would ever have thought that transferring from a big city school with tons of people to a little college in the woods could do this? or not being able to see the most important person in my life for 4 months? or taking the hardest classes i've ever had? or getting a job, doing well, and being promoted to a supervisor? or losing most of my friends, and making all new ones? what a world. what a life. i am ready for summer.

thought.

am i an actual senior now?! already? again? hmm. how weird. by this time next year, i will be finished with my undergraduate degree. what then? graduate school, i suppose. perhaps a job. i could just move to london. i love london.
it feels like i just finished my senior year of high school. that was a fun year. then i went to wvu. that was a fun time too. eric and i have been dating for a very super long time now. it just seems like everything just happened. college is almost over!! i can't be a grown up already. on the other hand, i feel like i actually know what i want to do for a career--for the first time in my life. that's a start.
the challenge of having my very own whole entire life used to be a little bit scary, but i'm learning that everything always falls into place just in time. middle school. high school. college. eric. other college. europe. i've always worried about my life, but i'm more secure about it right now than i've been in a long time. everything is good--like, long-term good right now. i like it. i feel old though. i suppose getting old isn't so bad; it's better than i thought it would be...

finished.

I'M DONE, I'M DONE, I'M DONE, I'M DONE!!!!!!
no more classes. no more tests. 4 months of no schoolwork. crazy. i'm going to start studying for comps next week. if i study for almost a full year, do you think i should be able to do well? god, i hope so.
i need to pack my belongings. so much stuff. i'm sitting here looking at my little room full of all of my very own stuff, and it's sad. i like this room, and i like the way my things are. i hate change with a passion. i'll pack some, help eric pack, take some things home, then come back here for our last night. good ol' night o' bethany fun.
summer now. i wore a tank top today because i thought it would be appropriate. i was a little cool this morning...oh well, at least i look summery.
the origins final was hard. it could have been harder...it could have been easier too. i don't know about that class.
i'm going to pack now. it feels weird to not have 12 papers to write, 4 tests to study for, and a guilty concience for not helping someone edit something.
the end. in more ways than one.

song.

i took my british lit ii final today. it was hard. no more dr hull classes. just comps.
i'm in a bad mood.
my head hurts really badly.
i am working here this summer. 15 may until 11 august.