home.

school is done. final exams are finished. moving out of the dorm is over. i'm home. i was at home for two night over easter break. before that, i had not been home since the end of christmas break. that was for three days. i was home for a week during thanksgiving break. and there were a few weekends during semester 1. anyway, i haven't been living in this room for a good long while. it's different. i'm different. i'm trying to unpack. so much stuff. i love all of the things that i had in my room at school. pretty. cute. love. the things in my room here are mostly old & juvenile, but memoirs. why do i have some of this stuff? why can't i get rid of some of it? memories. but still, i'm getting rid of a lot. it was so important to remember somethings, but now it isn't. did i really grow up this much during the past year? i think so. a lot has happened to me since august. good things. i'm different now. a lot more ready for everything. a lot more experienced. a lot more mature. a lot more in love. a lot more of my very own person. who would ever have thought that transferring from a big city school with tons of people to a little college in the woods could do this? or not being able to see the most important person in my life for 4 months? or taking the hardest classes i've ever had? or getting a job, doing well, and being promoted to a supervisor? or losing most of my friends, and making all new ones? what a world. what a life. i am ready for summer.